SeeFrenny

Can you take me out of this nightmare? Remove me from these walls of water, somewhere clean. I'm not dry. I'm not okay. Will you disect my mind, and pull out the sick Take away the memories of you, and you, and you Of me. Come closer than skin; than the fabric of my clothes and unravel the threads that stitch my spine, beautifully, carefully, Together. Only to fall apart, in your arms, a place for demons to call home. Home.

And after five days, I was okay. I tore down your love, and put away your lies. I never want to see them, again. And you called me- you called me beautiful, you called me over. I called you foolish, and let you hold my hand (once, twice...) and take me nowhere. And you're liquid; slow and fluid, across my arms down my spine. You put your body to rest, ontop of mine; suffocating my demons. And I didn't want you to leave.

Dear Diary, I haven't been around in quite a while, and for that, I apologize. I traded in your pages for liquid poisons, and lungs filled with smoke. I spilled my guts to strangers (all over the floor), and confided in delusions, when I was too scared to look at the truth- to look at me. Where were you? When I couldn't move when I couldn't breathe? We used to be enough. We used to be a force, that couldn't be touched. Where were you, when I couldn't stand (for myself, for her) Or that time I said goodnight in a demons arms? I needed you. I need you. I just forget how to ask. I've forgotten how to be real. Diary, do you miss m

I thought of you, as I watched weather being born. Clouds forming, faces of yours. Im changing skies, taking ten, twenty, thousand, steps back... Hoping and wishing on the sun, and dandelion skeletons, that youre right behind me, following my every, unwilling move. In these feet, Ive travelled far, centuries old, and rivers dry. Meet me in the trees, and under the rain; Where time is measured in kisses, and all weve got is time.

I sat on the clouds, for an hour or so; or more and you were willing to forget. Forget the smells, and the sounds put away the seconds, we spent near eachother. I touched ground and you were trying so hard, to forget. Go ahead. And forget my hands, my hair and the places we ate at. Forget my laugh, my walk, and the people we met. Hold your memories out the window, and give them to the wind. But don't forget me. Try not to remember, how it felt to let go (unwillingly) and put the days you cried, in a box. Send them to a familiar address, miles and miles away. But don't forget me; my name or how badly I wanted to kiss you

Sitting, uncomfortably numb from time, too much time, still. Itching skin, crawlers, tip-toeing around and between the hairs covering my neck, leaving foot prints; a gentle reminder that I'm never alone Never home, and always aware that the best of friends make the sweetest enemies Holding hearts, and humming bees in grass that hug your hips, leaving kisses when you go, a reminder we're still together, even when we're not. And sinking sand, grabs my hand, like the lonely boy, who wants a friend. But I'm not yours- I'm not yours, though you are mine I'm not yours and it's time to rise.

Day spent outside I'm tired of being inside this room, this head We'll lay side by side perfectly alligned, give or take a few inches. Avoiding hangups, and break ups, I'm caught up by you today the air is cool and wants to play- On our skin, in our hair dancing and singing a tune all it's own. Breathe it in, and feel it sink in catching the butterflies, and setting them free. They spill out my mouth with words of 'I love you' and 'I promise' written across their wings. Looking at you, I'll try hard not to stare, but please forgive me if I do (if you catch me) my eyes are magnets, for you. Day spent, outside legs

There was a man who sat by the lake. He had rubbery skin and glass eyes; moving water in the center. He always smiled as he fed the ducks, and I walked on by. I used to like people that smiled at strangers. It was a kind gesture that could usually brighten my day, if only for a second. I wish I'd known better. I walked near the lake often, alone or with my canine companion, because the water calmed me. I liked it when the sun shone down, picking apart every colour that belonged to me, and revealing its most precious secrets. I liked it green and sludgey, because I believed I could make it better. And I liked it dark. The night's reflection c

I want to be everything, but I'm not. So move on, but tell me where you're going because I promised to be there even if you weren't (you're everywhere but here) I spent four hours and four minutes at the tip of an island and that was enough. I wondered if it was as lonely as I am. I wondered if the island watched itself drift apart. I sympathized. I bowed to the water, and behind the reflection, I saw myself. I'll always be around, because I've no other place to be. But you're the gull, with freedom spread upon your wings, and an appetite for more, more, more. Air drenched skin I bathed in the wind, for four hours a

You called me irresistable and I disagreed from a distance safer than this. She's so irresistable, like ice in July, and everybody knows it but her. You took me to a place that was only yours- and made it ours. The sun coaxed  us there and you kissed me, sweetly. Poison coating my warm days, in the sun. She loves me! She loves me not. She loves me, because her tongue would never twist lies, to my face. I love her not enough, because I don't come cheap. Four wheels, two hands and no control, we crashed- but at least the damage isn't visible? You thought I was irresistable, but I smiled from a distance resist